Oi vey... I may not be that old; but life sure has run me ragged in my short existence so far. Only 18 and I am starting to feel the need to get out and see the world less and less because I've seen too much of how it's people act... *But* That's not what were here to talk about... or is it? Damn insomnia, stay up for too long and your brain starts to trip on you. Well; In a little over a week, I'll be 19; I'm probably going to be doing nothing on a side of nothing with nothing on top, served over a plate of nothingness..

How's my year been so far since I was 18?... Well: Let me recap...

Spring Semester, Senior Year: Lose my job at a major manufacturing company due to stress-related illnesses by being forced to put up with both the demands of a highly intellectual work environtment; and the sheer amount of crap that was needed for me to pass my senior year before having a breakdown and taking a non-prompted day off due to the fact I was so stressed I threw up.

End of Spring Semester: Move into an apartment with best friend and older sister... Older sister becomes less and less hospitable every day, even though she only brings in 1/3rd of the money.. Makes decisions without asking other's on the Lease, soon we wind up with 5 dead-beat friends of her's she's 'Too Caring and Motherly' to kick out and she's telling *Me* that I got 2 months To get a job or move out? Whens he *Knows* No one is hiring?.. Decided to move back in with my folks.

Moving in the the Folks: Everything appears fine, stuck in some trailer-esque home in the mountains.. No cell signal, Crappy 1mb/s internet and siblings that seem to want to play the 'Who can piss off their older brother the fastest' game. Expected to go to college; go and sign up, get registered.. Dad has heart failure due to work-related stress caused by hostile work environment.. Gets pissed off; decides we're moving again. No longer can go to class; spend the next 3-4 months playing games, watching movies and working out.

Moved once again, Current Day: Now we're in some crap-shack in the middle of nowhere; once again in the foothills of the mountains; and everythings breaking on us.. Having to pay hundreds of dollars out of pocket every couple of weeks, and rely on my mom (Who's a licensed carpenter) To fix almost everything in the house, constantly strapped for cash. Lots more stress and yelling.. Paranoia and Insomnia in full bloom.. Isolated away from all my friends, *So* Lucky I'm not going to get Cabin Fever up in the house.

And now, My Dad has another appointment set up, which falls *Directly* On my birthday.. So, it looks like games and movies it is again, cause he'll be too tired or busy to take me out to dinner and a movie of my choice.